Do you ever get so angry that it totally takes over your mind and body? I feel so angry that my insides are bursting at the seams and no matter how hard I try and use DBT (Dialectical behavioral therapy) or CBT (Cognitive behavioral therapy) it just does not seem to work with me when I feel this way. Anger is one of the strongest emotions there is (well for me anyway) if you try and fight it you lose every time. I find the only way to try and sooth it is with distraction but finding a way to do this when you can't even think straight is the hard thing.
That's why I thought I would start blogging about the battles with depression and anxiety. I feel I will be on here a lot because I have been slipping back, don't you always find that? You can feel OK one day and think your winning the battle and then the next your back to square one. That's what's it like living with depression, it plays with your mind, it makes you think you are well on your way to recovery and bam! not so fast sunshine get back where you belong in the darkness in the pit of dis pair.
It is a constant battle. I think of it as my shadow that is always around the corner. There was a car commercial here that showed a gas pump stalking a guy where ever he turned and that is how I got my idea. Blogging has helped me even to just get thoughts out of my head. You are definitely not alone!
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